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My Dark Vanessa

My Dark Vanessa

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  • Create Date：2022-10-09 07:55:34
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  • Author：Kate Elizabeth Russell
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Summary

An era-defining novel about the relationship between a fifteen-year-old girl and her teacher ALL HE DID WAS FALL IN LOVE WITH ME AND THE WORLD TURNED HIM INTO A MONSTER Vanessa Wye was fifteen-years-old when she first had sex with her English teacher。 She is now thirty-two and in the storm of allegations against powerful men in 2017， the teacher， Jacob Strane， has just been accused of sexual abuse by another former student。 Vanessa is horrified by this news， because she is quite certain that the relationship she had with Strane wasn't abuse。 It was love。 She's sure of that。 Forced to rethink her past， to revisit everything that happened， Vanessa has to redefine the great love story of her life - her great sexual awakening - as rape。 Now she must deal with the possibility that she might be a victim， and just one of many。 Nuanced， uncomfortable， bold and powerful， My Dark Vanessa goes straight to the heart of some of the most complex issues of our age。

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Reviews

Christine ，

This book was heartbreaking and icky and frustrating， but it was written SO WELL。 The ending was lovely

Paige ，

This is a truly haunting story that was written so beautifully。 This subject matter is not for everyone but I think it is an extremely important book。 I left feeling sad and hopeful after finishing。 I don't know if I'll ever reread but I'll carry this story for forever。 This is a truly haunting story that was written so beautifully。 This subject matter is not for everyone but I think it is an extremely important book。 I left feeling sad and hopeful after finishing。 I don't know if I'll ever reread but I'll carry this story for forever。 。。。more

Anastasia ，

I finished it in almost 2 days。 I don’t want to insult Colleen Hoover and her fans but this book is much better than hers。 First of all， according to my opinion every teenage girl and parents should read it。 So they can understand how manipulation and sexual abuse can look like！ So many signs and no one couldn’t find the courage to talk！

Hibah Butt ，

4 stars

Emily Ashton ，

This book has broken me， such a disturbing story but so beautifully written and important for the world we live in。 Several parts of this book were so difficult to read but I’m glad to have read it。

Shelby ，

My Dark Vanessa 2 ⭐️This story was written beautifully， it really showed the trauma that comes from being groomed， and suffering abuse at the hands of an adult as a child。 The author did an amazing job depicting that。 I found this to be slow， and filled with so many fillers， that didn’t relate to the story at all。 I really struggled to get through it because of that。 Otherwise the writing was great just not something that really kept me interested throughout the story。

ava gajewski ，

Incredibly heartbreaking， but a must-read for sure。 Wonderfully written。

Kikki ，

When I first Lolita as a teenager， I was convinced it was a love story。 As I grew older， I realized Lolita was far from a love story but a horror story about a man who manipulated a child and took her innocence away。 In Lolita， we read it from Humbert-Humbert's （the pedophile） point of view。 He describes Dolores（to whom he gives the name Lolita） as someone who seduced him， which is far from the truth。 Vladamir Nabokov（author） said that Humbert was an unreliable narrator。 In "My Dark Vanessa" by When I first Lolita as a teenager， I was convinced it was a love story。 As I grew older， I realized Lolita was far from a love story but a horror story about a man who manipulated a child and took her innocence away。 In Lolita， we read it from Humbert-Humbert's （the pedophile） point of view。 He describes Dolores（to whom he gives the name Lolita） as someone who seduced him， which is far from the truth。 Vladamir Nabokov（author） said that Humbert was an unreliable narrator。 In "My Dark Vanessa" by Kate Elizabeth Russell， we can now see the story from the victim's point of view， how the abuse had brainwashed her and how she learns to heal from her trauma。 This novel beautifully captures what it is like to be a victim of sexual assault as a young child and how manipulation can downplay your experiences。 This novel was heartbreaking， and I couldn't stop thinking about it for days。 This novel gave me the closure I desperately looked for in Lolita。 。。。more

。booktrovert ，

I'm not going to rate this book， because for me it just doesn't feel right。 The only thing I'm going to say is: If something like this ever happend to you，IT'S。 NOT。 YOUR。 FAULT。 I'm not going to rate this book， because for me it just doesn't feel right。 The only thing I'm going to say is: If something like this ever happend to you，IT'S。 NOT。 YOUR。 FAULT。 。。。more

jane ，

There is something about the book that makes it real。 The writing is amazing the book seems as if it was written by a person who experienced this sort of thing。 I felt disturbed most of the time and have to put it down a lot of times because I couldn't take it anymore。 But it was so well written and I wanted to know more and more about the story。 Before reading check TWs。 There is something about the book that makes it real。 The writing is amazing the book seems as if it was written by a person who experienced this sort of thing。 I felt disturbed most of the time and have to put it down a lot of times because I couldn't take it anymore。 But it was so well written and I wanted to know more and more about the story。 Before reading check TWs。 。。。more

r8chh ，

3。5 almost 4 but it was a little drawn out for me。 This was really good， the way that she was talking about things as if it wasn't a big deal， but as a reader the red flags were blaring。 It was good， intense， but good。 3。5 almost 4 but it was a little drawn out for me。 This was really good， the way that she was talking about things as if it wasn't a big deal， but as a reader the red flags were blaring。 It was good， intense， but good。 。。。more

Brittany ，

In terms of writing style， this was an easy read， but in terms of content， this was an extremely difficult one。 I could really only read a chapter at a time and felt sick during certain parts。 Yet it’s an incredibly powerful story and experiencing the manipulation Vanessa faced from her perspective was especially eye opening。 Unfortunately I felt like there were a lot of unnecessary and drawn out additional characters and plot lines （Henry， Ira， Bridget） and so the book probably could’ve been sh In terms of writing style， this was an easy read， but in terms of content， this was an extremely difficult one。 I could really only read a chapter at a time and felt sick during certain parts。 Yet it’s an incredibly powerful story and experiencing the manipulation Vanessa faced from her perspective was especially eye opening。 Unfortunately I felt like there were a lot of unnecessary and drawn out additional characters and plot lines （Henry， Ira， Bridget） and so the book probably could’ve been shorter。 But in saying that， I think a lot of complex topics were covered and woven together in a really realistic and thoughtful way。 。。。more

Clover ，

almost threw up after

anil ，

ok il m’a fallu 1 mois pour le finir mais ce livre est incroyable。 Écriture 10/10 Plot 10/10 Perso 10/10 je l’ai adoré et honnêtement c’est un 4，5 /5 pcq je donne pas de 5。 Par contre faut être un bonhomme pour le finir

Dominic ，

This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers。 To view it， click here。 I couldn't do it。 I couldn't get past the explicitly described rape scene。 I'm sure it's a great book， but I can't bring myself to read any further。  I couldn't do it。 I couldn't get past the explicitly described rape scene。 I'm sure it's a great book， but I can't bring myself to read any further。  。。。more

Sophia ，

This is the kind of book that occupies all your headspace when you’re reading it， and some parts are very difficult to read because of the content。 This book will make you feel anger， sadness， and hopefulness- all very deeply。 I think it was a brave and expertly crafted novel that felt like real life。

Haniyyah ，

Still haven't recovered from this。 It was disturbing， hard， nevertheless I've mixed opinion about this book。 Still haven't recovered from this。 It was disturbing， hard， nevertheless I've mixed opinion about this book。 。。。more

Shey ，

I'm giving this 4 stars with a shoulder to cry on。 This story is undeniably well-written and richly drawn。 It's a carefully executed story of sexual abuse and trauma。 It's profoundly disturbing but captivating。 Frustrating， but with insightful intentions。 Russell made sure that this story would have an impact on many readers。 It was definitely an overwhelming reading experience。 Vanessa Wye will be living in my head rent-free for a while。 I'm giving this 4 stars with a shoulder to cry on。 This story is undeniably well-written and richly drawn。 It's a carefully executed story of sexual abuse and trauma。 It's profoundly disturbing but captivating。 Frustrating， but with insightful intentions。 Russell made sure that this story would have an impact on many readers。 It was definitely an overwhelming reading experience。 Vanessa Wye will be living in my head rent-free for a while。 。。。more

Sam ，

4。25“‘I can’t lose the thing I’ve held on to for so long。 I just really need it to be a love story。 You know？ I really， really need it to be that [。。。] Because if it isn’t a love story， then what is it？ It’s my life。This has been my whole life。’”Kinda hard to review this because of the subject matter， especially because it's not my place to say anything about it。 However， general consensus is that this book does it pretty well and I agree。 You can definitely see that the author handled it with t 4。25“‘I can’t lose the thing I’ve held on to for so long。 I just really need it to be a love story。 You know？ I really， really need it to be that [。。。] Because if it isn’t a love story， then what is it？ It’s my life。This has been my whole life。’”Kinda hard to review this because of the subject matter， especially because it's not my place to say anything about it。 However， general consensus is that this book does it pretty well and I agree。 You can definitely see that the author handled it with the care needed and showed the proper amount of nuance。 But at the end of the day， it's not my place。It was not enjoyable to read， some scenes are just so disgusting and gross， but I found it very interesting to give a word to what I feel。 The way Strane was portrayed very realistic to what I expect men like him are。 The way he manipulates Vanessa and the people around him， I can really tell how he got away with it for so long （of course， the system played a major part of this too） but his constant beating of himself to make Vanessa feel guilty and make himself feel like he's the one who will walk away from the situation with the most to lose。 I also really like the fact that the book showed how women can be and sometimes are compliant to abuse。 “。。。along with the other teachers who saw me， the one who called me Strane’s classroom pet， Ms。 Thompson and Mrs。 Antonova， who recognized the clues but didn’t protest when those clues were used as evidence of an emotionally troubled girl。”Also all the commentary on media and journalism and how abuse victims are treated and sometimes just get used all over again just to get a viral story， among other things。 I definitely learned a lot from this book and gained a new perspective。“There must be a point where you’re allowed to be defined by something other than what he did to you [。。。] I watch her walk away， not a rumor but a real person， a woman who used to be a girl。 I’m real， too。 Have I ever thought that about myself so plainly before？ ” 。。。more

Tamara Huezo ，

Please check Trigger warnings as it is a very descriptive book and could be triggering。 I have never felt such conflicting emotions when reading a book。 It was heart wrenching， tragic， and at times uncomfortable。 A book that is necessary for people to read。 Reading the perspective of the victim and walking through all her heavy emotions were gut wrenching。 I believe many people need to read this book to understand the emotions a victim struggles with。 A hard and emotional read <3

Cynthia ，

Un livre confrontant， lourd， sombre。。。 que j'ai beaucoup aimé。 Je ne mettrais pas ce livre entre toutes les mains car il est difficile à lire la plupart du temps。 Il y a beaucoup de scènes d'abus dérangeantes。 L'écriture de l'autrice nous captive et réussit à nous faire lire l'insoutenable tout en passant un moment de lecture appréciable。 C'est pour moi un talent incroyable。 Un livre confrontant， lourd， sombre。。。 que j'ai beaucoup aimé。 Je ne mettrais pas ce livre entre toutes les mains car il est difficile à lire la plupart du temps。 Il y a beaucoup de scènes d'abus dérangeantes。 L'écriture de l'autrice nous captive et réussit à nous faire lire l'insoutenable tout en passant un moment de lecture appréciable。 C'est pour moi un talent incroyable。 。。。more

Lisa F ，

I couldn’t put this book down。 It was an incredibly compelling， emotionally gripping， （at times disturbing）， look at sexual abuse， through the eyes of a fifteen year old girl。 The author did a very convincing job of showing how blurry the lines between love and abuse can be， especially to an impressionable teenager。 The aftermath， decades later， was also portrayed so realistically。 The writing was excellent， the storyline unique and provocative。

Cassie James ，

Umm wow。 How can this book feel so relatable with it not being relatable。 I literally felt like I was inside Vanessa and everything that was happening to her was also happening to me。 I felt how easy it was to be manipulated and to continue to believe in the lie of a pedophile。 The hardest thing about trauma is the acceptance。 It was still hard to read how she didn't accept that he did anything wrong because "she wanted it and felt she was empowered"。 Although I could not read this fast enough。 Umm wow。 How can this book feel so relatable with it not being relatable。 I literally felt like I was inside Vanessa and everything that was happening to her was also happening to me。 I felt how easy it was to be manipulated and to continue to believe in the lie of a pedophile。 The hardest thing about trauma is the acceptance。 It was still hard to read how she didn't accept that he did anything wrong because "she wanted it and felt she was empowered"。 Although I could not read this fast enough。 Now I have to read Lolita 😂 。。。more

hawa =^_^= ，

i can't even process what i just read。 i think i'm going to reread before the end of the year。 honestly such a well written book the contents obviously are horrible and very triggering but the prose the writing the unreliable narrator the conversation with lolita and pale fire was executed just perfectly。 the whole time I was reading this my mind just kept saying 5 stars 5 stars 5 stars and the last line？？ it broke me。 i can't even process what i just read。 i think i'm going to reread before the end of the year。 honestly such a well written book the contents obviously are horrible and very triggering but the prose the writing the unreliable narrator the conversation with lolita and pale fire was executed just perfectly。 the whole time I was reading this my mind just kept saying 5 stars 5 stars 5 stars and the last line？？ it broke me。 。。。more

Suya ，

4，5 starsi wouldve liked a better conclusion to wrap it up but i guess thats kind of the point of the bookmade me kinda depressed tho

Courtney ，

4。5

Francis ，

This was one heavy book。 I just couldn't read more than a few pages at a time because it was killing me slowly。 I still don't think I really understand， but it was a great perspective。 This was one heavy book。 I just couldn't read more than a few pages at a time because it was killing me slowly。 I still don't think I really understand， but it was a great perspective。 。。。more

Nicole Hudspeth ，

Mostly I was creeped out by this book because of the student/teacher relationship in this book。

Julia Tc ，

there were so many point in this book where i just wanted to grab vanessa’s shoulder and shaker her and say “Vanessa stop please！！ Snap out of it！！”

e ♡ ，

fuck。 so this is what they mean when they say that a book can mess you up

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